Thursday, January 17, 2008
depressed..
been troubled over certain things recently.. sigh...
dont know is it because of my sensitivity .. or being a 'lil depressed?
its been yearsss.. nearly a decade i can say.. but .. why is it still haunting me? it looks like i can never never shake it off me! i'm not being exaggerating here but.. its really true..
people who knows.. will know how i feel..
its really miserable sometimes. especially, times when i think of it. and i dont even think that i've ever done anything wrong to be treated this way..
friends told me to forget abt it.. unless u can stop contacting this person. and since u've already beared it for 10yrs so why not let it pass?
words is definitely easier than actions.. but sometimes u just cant bring urself to forgive and forget. and actually i'm the type who can forgive and forget, but .. when the other party cant, and cant stop bringing up the same old nonsense for like FOREVER? how could i ?
i must have done very bad things to him/her in my pastlife.
sum: its nvr easy to understand humans. probably one in a million chance.
next..
i've lost my fucking phone again on tuesday!!!!
fuck sia.. i left it somewhere near my counter.. must be some stupid brainless, cheap, poor, ill mannered students or even grown ups(shame of u!!) whom their mother brought them up to be a thief!!!
im not so sad over the phone..
but its bloody sad to lose my sim card with all the contacts and my memory card!
i've lost all my contacts apart from those which i can still remember their numbers.. GAHHHSS! and there's still some photos in my phone which i havent even upload to my pc.. my chalet's videos which my staff took that day..
FUCK MAN!!!!i'm getting sooO numb towards the lost of my mobile phone(S).
thrice in 4 years! damnnn it!! every1 said, its like a curse for me.. really leh.. each time i buy a phone.. the longest i can use it for is 6mths.. then for sure.. it will end up in other people's house.. haiz.. i must break the curse.. have to maybe go temple to pray or "beat little man"..
forget it.. the mention of it spoils my day...
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
somebody said something today.. and it totally struck a chord in me. im just a step away from tears..
"all the things i do for her, i dont expect her to return me anything in any ways. but..not to hurt me in that way.."
i totally agree.
sometimes i think. maybe it might be better if humans are born to be meaner. if some people are born that way, then why not? as long as u'r not the mean-mean type of person whom have no friends at all. semi-mean will do.. haha..
i really dunno what nonsense im sprouting right now.
time for proper updates!
nothing much has been going on recently for me except that im still very much slacking on "holiday moods".. AHA~
and sis went back to perth last saturday and we got to send her off. was kind of sad i admit but ... still.. she have to leave..
really hope for time to pass.. to go away in a blink.. =)
gotta make plans for the next Perth trip this year.. cos in this way, we can at least see sis twice a year mah.. hee..
& i spent splendid times with my staffs outside work finally! had a chalet last
Monday(07/01/08)
Yanting, Ethel, Leeling and me checked in in the afternoon 1st after buying our BBQ food.. was damn damn famished.. so after all of us settled everything, rested for minutes.. then went to grab our brunch at Subway! haha!
was feeling abit unwell that day.. so me and leeling shared a meal.. which i cant even finish the halfed sandwich..
went back to the chalet and 4 of us lie on the 2 combined single beds with pillows and blankets prepared.. then the 3 of them was like finding the perfect spot and pose to lie comfortably..haha! switched the tv on and chucked in our dvd to watch! thats how lazy we are once out of work i think!
when the show ended, the forever hyper, energized leeling wanted to do something instead of wasting the time sleeping.. think she spent like 30 mins pulling us up.
and she suggested... fly kites. -.-"
and we walked. from downtown east to....? FISHERMAN VILLAGE!! wth!!! of cos in the end, the shop selling kites was closed. hahaha.. and the strolling to and fro took us 1 hr. but though, it was a rather rare experience lah.. haha..
it was nearly 10pm when we started fire for our pit.. waited for JJ, Yingping, Janet and Pei er to reach.. haiyah.. me..being the oldest of all.. have to cook for them to eat.. but of cos with the help of Yanting and JJ lah.. =)
started drinking after awhile.. and JJ damn lousy lor! being the only guy, he was the 1st to drop dead!! wah piang.. followed by Pei er and Ethel .. so damn drunk and noisy till the security guard came to warn us.. haha.. but they did somehow entertained us with their funny actions lah..
and me.. due to bad sore throat that im having(they claimed tat its excuses), head turned big and spinned like hell.. rested around 1am.. but cruel Janet insisted on waking me up after 30mins.. but i managed to drag it for 45mins lah.. haha..
woke up and continued drinking.. till 6am! almost fainted man..
bathed and chatted till 7plus then everyone fall asleep..including those who insisted on not sleeping! lolx!
checked out early 10am.. sianz..
many thanks to Jamie(Vivo) and Biqi(Amk) for helping out the next day at TM.. so that all of us can take off! heh! frankly speaking, this company didnt really give me anything at all, except for the fact that ive met all this wonderful staffs & also colleagues from other branches.
they are the reason that kept me moving on in this company.
and will never ever forget.. this group of great staffs whom eventually became my friends.. who have always listened to my grumbles, and of cos unhappiness.. and always cheering me up with their silly jokes.. they always had a way to make me laugh.. providing me advices, console and comfort.. i've nv ever thought that i can meet true friends at work. like people said, colleagues and friends are nvr the same. and have to draw a clear line between work and friends.
but, they really made me think otherwise. its like we've no secrets hidden from each other.. esp with Yanting and Leeling. nearly forgot to mention, we played the "truth or dare" game. when it was me, YT or Leeling's turn, we had nothing to ask each other. and let the chance passed to others to ask. and Leeling said; we can even help each other to answer questions.
lol.. funny but yet i find it meaningful.
People says -- i have to quit my job bcuz of "some" fncker colleagues.
but i would say -- i stayed in my job bcuz of all this helluva, wonderful colleagues. and they are the greatest thing that i got back in return for staying 4years in this .. bloody
futureless company. -.-
