...................

i'd always know and agree that sometimes..the truth does hurt more than lies. but why am i so fucking stubborn? why muz i find out things that i know i shouldnt?

at one point, i was.. pissed..or maybe disappointed. but when i've calmed down..i thought..thoroughly.
as far as i can see, life is gd..for u.. yah.. i cant say is it better, or not. but yah..

i'm not saying all this in any fit of anger. i'm surprisingly calm..mentally stable! LOLX! i just had this suddenly thinking. since u're living good.. i dont see why mine is .. in helluva mess..
enough of this.. right now, my mind is kinda blurred and confused( i dont know why too).

well.. stoopid Qf.. thank her for her GD RECOMMENDATION. she told me that there's this 3 MUST-BET-MATCH, SURE WIN. LOLX. i was in damn bad mood yesterday that i didnt thought much abt it, so i went along. she said its a sure win kang tao. wahahahaa.. followed.. won 1, lost 2! what kind of KT is that?! and i stupidly followed without even knowing what are the teams! damnit.. :(

ok and for today. im on Man City. im abit ga-ga recently lah.. actually just bet only..LOL.. oh but m.city isnt her KKKKTTTT lah..i just chose it myself. hopefully can recoup my losses. *prays! ;)

$$$$$$! insane.

--remember me. and bring our memories along in ur heart. me too. :)

smoke-d @
Tuesday, October 31, 2006}

wah! today's really sucky! the suckiest day for the mth!

firstly, i would like to ask, who are u to talk abt R-E-S-P-E-C-T to me? i dont remember YOU RESPECTING ME BEFORE! and ask yourself, what the fuck u did to me? to think u have the cheeks to want me to respect u. pls, if u dont know the word -respect, find a dictionary.

secondly, whatever u're doing, it's ur own fucking problem, it doesnt bother me in any ways! in the past, i can say i would. but not now. not anymore. U ARE JUST A STRANGER IN MY EYES SINCE THEN.

thirdly, i'm so freaking thankful towards u. for making me believe how cruel humans can be! thank you for being a GD-REAL-EXAMPLE.

ok i think thats enough abt u. it aint goin to spoil my mood further.

but.. im truly disappointed in "someone". i dont wish to mention names here. but yah.. i can understand that u are in a very foul mood. all im trying to do is to talk to u COS I KNEW THAT U ARE IN BAD MOOD! i wouldnt talk to u for no fucking reasons lah pls! (im sorry i had to say this after what happened minutes ago) my intentions was just trying to find some topic to talk to u and hoping u will feel betta after talking! i remembered that u used to come and talk to me too when i was in a very foul mood that time! and so i thought this is my turn to do so too! as i thought u did really cheer me up alot by taking the initiative to msn me, and just a simple word "are u okay?"
before talking in that way of yours, did u ever think of all the above that i mentioned? did u think of a person's intentions?
AND did u think of i'm also in a fucking mood today BUT yet, i tried to talk to u, trying to cheer u up! but though, we didnt even really start a proper conversation. all we did was, i asked, u answer. thats all.

----i cared, because i consider u as a friend. but i dont think u did. and i thought we are friends, before today.

smoke-d @
Monday, October 30, 2006}

today's another "to slack at home plan" being cancelled.. all thanks to weiwen! grrrr...! if he didnt call me at 12noon askin me... dont know wad shit as i was sleeping! then he wont find out that im off today! so ended up meeting him when he finished work. and mel too.. wow.. mel says that its been abt 3 years since she last met me! at Zouk! LOLX! got so long meh?! come to think of it.. yah i guess so..haha.. when was the last time i clubbed? cant remember... yearss i think..

didnt really go anywhere also.. met them at TPY.. went to a bubble tea shop which Mel insisted that we did went there b4! sorry ah.. i really cant remember! hahaha.. talked abt some pri sch mates..which i cant remember most of them! LOL... generous Mel invited me to her house, probably 1 day when im free! she goin to help me recollect my memories! she still keeping those old photos and some stuffs..
omg..where's mine then? i really dont know.. must dig them out 1 day~

shit! work tmr's goin to be tedious! am goin to change the "image" of the shop.. so i managed to ask ashley and jiahui over to help! hehe.. probably will work till.. late hours..
but guess it will be fun too! so long nv work with both of them already! hahahaa..miss those days!

---i dont know you, stranger.

smoke-d @
Friday, October 27, 2006}

LOL.. topic is lame i know.. but suddenly find this sentence meaningful! and it suits me well! yah..
just came home..met up with Chris and Chooi Jy and Tony.. wenta Bugis for steamboat! recommended by Tony! hahahha.. hmm..surprisingly not bad! cos every1 knows Tony de recommendation..err... wahahaha!! oohh..and we walked passed the "tang shui"(dessert) also! looks..ok lah.. hahahaha.. ok lah trust him for 1 more time! next time gathering again we go there eaT!
had a free steamboat dinner! courtesy of Chris who insisted on treating me..for being the peacemaker! haha.. ITS ALWAYS MY HONOUR TO HELP PEOPLE! LOLX! but im just being helpful lah.. now everything settle le i also happy for them! we knew each other for so long le...of cos muz cherish ok! from music junction close down till now ok! hahahaha.. its a LEGEND liao!

im off today! damn tired lah.. work has been damn busy nowadays! :( if this goes on, i think me and yanting going to break down soon! haiz.. just hope that all this hard work will prove something gr8 for us soon! dont make our effort down the drain okay!? *bless bless!

no programmes tmr! grrr.. realised something.. i always have programmes going on, or meeting up with friends after work. but when it comes to my off day.. im always at home! why? im so lazy! i've used up all my energy! just wanna slack at home lah! sleep, eat, watch dramas/dvds, sleep again, eat again, surf net.. wah! life is so gd! but if only everyday can liddat.. =(

i think we must learn how to let things go sometimes.. when its not yours, forcing yourself and others to continue holding it back wont benefit in any way.. its just making life difficult for youselves, for others. why not live happily? its a choice. learn to let go. make life a difference.. yeah! geez! i sound so pro! LOLX! so profound! hahahaha.. hmm gd!


-something is missing in my life. my heart feels so.. what is it?

tell me in my dreams okay?! =p

smoke-d @
Friday, October 27, 2006}

ITS SO WEIRD.
WHY?
ALL OUT OF A SUDDEN. DISAPPEARED?
I DONT UNDERSTAND.
I MIGHT BE THINKING TOO MUCH, BUT SOMEHOW FEELINGS TELLS ME THAT I AIN'T BEING PARANOID.
I DONT KNOW WHY.. BUT I FIND IT RIDICULOUS.

1 THING I KNOW.
EVEN JUDGES DECLARE THE OFFENSE(S) CONVICTED BY A CRIMINAL BEFORE PROVING HIM/HER GUILTY AND THEREFORE SERVE THEM A PRISON SENTENCE. BUT BEFORE ALL THIS, THEY ARE ALLOWED TO FIGHT/PROVE FOR THEIR INNOCENCE.


MAKE SOMEONE AWARE OF THEIR SINFULNESS OR GUILT.
AND NOT A CRUEL SILENT KILLER.

smoke-d @
Thursday, October 26, 2006}

damn.. im so freaking bored lah! haiz.. its so sucky! no chatting "khakis" on msn also!
today was .. terrible day for me.. everything is wrong.. everything isnt going the way i want it to be! suck.

dont wish to bring up unhappy topic anyway. whatever tat has already happened..cant be stopped also.. yah..
i just hope for simple and peaceful life lah.. pls grant my simple wish,God..

i think i just dont have the mood to blog anything today.. feeling a huge stone pressing on my heart.. feels like shouting aloud.. im quite certain that all of u had this kinda feeling before right? at 1 point i thought im mad....


**pls let me let you go :/

smoke-d @
Wednesday, October 25, 2006}

the movie "Click" just suddenly appeared in my mind. yah how i wished i have the remote control now.. i wouldnt fast forward days of my life, but..yahh.. i would choose to "go back". if i can, i wouldnt want things to be this way now. anyway, it has already happened, and nothing can be change.. so why bother?

met up with Keline after work.. sat around..chatting.. she's still the same..LOL.. except it was sort of awkward, at first. talked alot.. and .. yah.. glad to meet her..

Boss came today.. didnt expect that he wil come after the "big bomb" from him yesterday. but he was fine today.. still can joke.. today then i know from him that we are not the only outlet who got scolding from him yesterday..yah.. he went 7 outlets and all of them kena.. haiz.. im sad too..abt TM's sales.. but i've really run out of ideass!! how to boost the sales? teach me,anyone?
probably, i need celebrities like Rain, Jay Chou or Missy Elliot to come into my shop and sing a few songs LIVE! LOL! how cool will that be?! hahaha.. im blabbling rubbish lah! dream on..

did i mentioned abt watching The Break-Up few days back? watched it on dvd which i borrowed home.. not bad.. i like the quote "i want u to want to do the dishes", "i want u to want to bring me to ballet". LOL.. yah.. its meaningful lah.. i want u to want to! hahaha..if only u hear me?!
and Lake House was fine also.. dont find it suuuuperbbb like how ppl around me commented on it! at a point of time i find it sucky! but was being persuaded by Joshua to finish watching it..and was attracted to watching it again after he said "i teared in the cinema when i watched it ok"... LOL.. cry say cry la..dont dare to admit..
teared = cry. wahahahaha.
but for me, the ending is perfect! but i didnt cried. i'm always a cry baby when coming to watching sad dramas or movies..but in this case.. the start of the show bored me sooO much that i wasnt touched abt the most saddening part. kind of disappointed..LOL! i want to watch something real sad lah!! where is all the sad films nowadays? even the new korean dramas now are all abt commedy-love story! BLAH! where's all the old sad, miserable, heartbreaking dramas?! :(

Vivo is such an IN topic for singaporeans now lah! i havent had a chance to go there yet! hopefully soon!! *yes yes! =p singaporeans so kiasu lah.. still got some shops havent open yet loh! so gan cheong for wad!? KIASU! ;)

smoke-d @
Tuesday, October 24, 2006}

damn.. its such an UNPEACEFUL OFF DAY!
i understand that u're in a very foul mood these days over some problems in the company, BUT why must u take it out on my staffs?!
and whatever u'd said not only frustrated me, but it hurts me more!
i thought.. thought u know how hard it is.
im so wrong lah!
the truth is - U DONT EVEN APPRECIATE!
if u really think that it doesnt matter to u even if we resign 1 day? i bet my head on it! u wouldnt be acting as cool as now!
the whole fucking MJ knows that we're freakingly shorthanded ok!
dont talk abt how gr8 Vivo is.
dont tell me how tidy CP is.
dont compare my sales with JP!

its just fucking unfair ok! i also wish TM is a NEWLY OPENED SINGAPORE'S LARGEST SHOPPING MALL.
& i desperately want 2 FULL-TIMER, AND 1 PART-TIMER WHO CAN WORK AS MUCH AS YIHUA, THE PART-TIMER IN CP!
& i certainly wish that SEMBAWANG MUSIC @ CENTURY SQUARE CLOSE DOWN.

to a certain extent, i just hope u will get to see this blog entry! be it u cant read english, and i dont fucking care. get urself a translator! JERK-ASS!
haiz.. to think, before 22 Oct 2006, 5.14pm. u were a Boss i respected alot(not really alot lah but yah..at least more that ur brother,Alvin. oh thats another fucking idiot to mention!) anyway, let me tel u this, its not for the company, and definitely not for u that im staying on in this fucking company..ok! it is for my fucking pride that i want to keep!

and goddamn thanks to u, spoiled the whole of my awesome week i'd.
it was perfectly fine till today! damnit.

smoke-d @
Sunday, October 22, 2006}

my sis is back from taiwan! hahaha.. at 1st i was quite excited when she called from airport to ask me to carry things home for her when she reached..
hmm.. then i suddenly remembered her trip to thailand..few mths back.,
she spent $1000SD..in THAILAND. buying nothin back for me except for a pair of shoes..

this time, i lent her $300.. she said it is a budget trip,she'll only spend $600. but she need another $300..JUST IN CASE TO SPARE!
BUT, she spent $900!
there goes my $300! guess wad she bought me? haiz..betta than dun have!

-a tee shirt which cost $30SD
-a pkt of cigarettes from TW, and 1 from DFS(which i suppose its free. cos her friends bought, and my sis dont smoke so maybe she took a pkt from them! BOO!!)
-a buddha pendant from temple(i think its also free...)

THATS IT!

though she buy alot(i really mean ALOT) of tibits.. haha.. but.. i dont really eat them.
and i think my parents and sister will finish most of them b4 i get to eat! :(

nv mind.. she will return me the money(i hope) hahahhaha.. though it will be diffcult!
oh and she bought a Jay Chou poster for my 2nd sis! such a waste of money! he is not even handsome i dont know ppl want his poster for what?!
and it cost &16.50SD! though the picture is different from those i have in shop.. but.. im selling it for like $5 lor! RIP OFF!!

hmm..wondering when's my turn for holiday?? *soon soon!! i wanna go HK!! =p

wah! today i slept damn long! slept from 2am till 2pm. its 12hrs! watched tv..slacked.. till abt 3 or 4pm.. sleep again! haha.. finally woke up at 8pm! wow.. been so so freaking long that i could sleep for so many hrs!
but.. how to sleep later? lolx.. its 1.20am, but im not even a bit tired..

save me.. (@_@)

smoke-d @
Thursday, October 19, 2006}

yeah tmr is my off day! finally! if not i really think i will go crazy soon! been working for 8days.. plus..nv really sleep.. plus.. met ash and jia hui yesterday! when the 3 gossip queens gets around.. stories..gossips..lasted us till FREAKING 6AM IN THE MORNING! reached home around 7! K.O..! lolx! slept for like 1hr plus then woke up at 8.45am..
damn tired at work lah! somehow i sat on the chair, daydreaming.. then find myself dozing off! hahahaha! it shows how tired i am! so decided to go "shopping". lolx

went Popular..bought some stuffs for putting up posters in the shop..etc.. see?! "shopping" also for the sake of WORK!
yeah we finally look more like a CD shop now! loll.. ever since tony left, no one put up posters anymore.. all lazy!!

it was really fun meeting up with Ash and Jiahui yesterday~ been so so soOO freakin long since we last met! hmm i was told by them.. it was ever since i left for TM..which was like more than a year ago! lolx! ahha..now i know why we could chat for so long!
will really try to meet up with u ladies more ok! ;) i yearning for more stories from Ash! hahaha!

trip to Genting might be..cancelled.. abit sad but its ok lah.. cos we didnt really make time to plan for it also..
next time still got chance de!

1 more thing. im so so so in love with Kenji's new song! "chan fei"(or whatever u all spell it in hanyu pin yin). paralysed. yah..
friday's outing might be cancelled also.. havent even tel tony abt it, but sam might not be joining also!

hmm.. outing cancelled(maybe), holiday cancelled. *grrrrr.. BOO!!!

and i almost forget! MUST BLOG THIS SO I'LL NV FORGET IT! I HATE STOOPID ALVIN! IDIOT! keep bugging for smallll smallll things recently! bth leh! wtf! so many outlets so many staffs, why u only target me?! STOOPID little beard! lolx!
TM abit suay recently.. keep letting them have chance to point their blardy fingers @ us! muz pray! haha..

i've planned what to do tmr! lolx! not goin anywhere as i am seriously shacked! so i gonna stay at home, watch the Korean drama leeling recommended. cant rem the title.. smth like Snow White/Sweet love. it is my slacking day tmr! :) hopefully nothing crop up last min to spoil my long awaited off day/plan.

**suddenly miss Music Junction again.. :(

i think i'd better go to bed now..else i might be fallin' asleep on my pc table! lolx!
i must sleep all i can to replenish my energy losses for the past 1 week! heh! byesssss (-_-)zZZ

smoke-d @
Wednesday, October 18, 2006}

worked today..and its my 5th workin day since chalet ended. worst thing is, i still dont know when i can take off! schedule is so tight! that i can only take off if other outlets can spare me staff..haiz.. in the past, i might be trying very hard now to find a staff to work for me so i can off, but now.. i think to work is betta.. its so weird..though i really feel tired.
actually can take off tmr..but i choose not to. take off stay at home also sian, might as well work so time will pass faster! agree?

am i trying to avoid facts? i dont know.
but i choose not to face it.

was smoking at open plaza today, saw a couple quarrelled and the guy was running after his gf, trying to hold her. like watching drama..lolx.. finished smoking so i headed back to work. then i saw them again after work! but this time, they looked so in love again..like little couples. lolx.. its so funny and weird, it's like meant for me to see it like that.

reminds me lots of memories..


3weeks passed.. but why am i still feeling pain in heart? if only i have the power.. to forget all the bad memories. but keep the gd ones..

anyway! dont wish to waste anymore time.. dont wanna be the past wishy-washy person. now all i can do is to tell myself that life will still be as gd! or even better ok! ;)
and ive got gr8 friends and family! i think ive neglected ppl around me alot! and now, i'm really tryin to make it up to every single 1 of u! but it takes some time ok.. hahahaha.. cos so many ppl ive neglected for the past 2-3 years!

yea working tmr again! with leeling, yanting and ethel! made tiramisu with sis just now! am goin to bring it to work to let them try!(guinea pigs!) if nice, i'll make some more next week for our gathering!

shall blog next time.. its 2am already! gotta sleep! nights.. -_-

smoke-d @
Sunday, October 15, 2006}

grrr..today did alot of "shit work"! dunno why suddenly have the energy to tidy the shop.. and vacuum the shop! ok and im so impressed with the OSIM's water-based vacuum cleaner! its so powerful! lolx.. though only managed to vacuum half or the shop..because of the stoopid office! who didnt gave us the lower part of the vacuum cleaner! and we have to vacuum using the small small pipe's hole!!
and it is sooOO tedious ok! haha 1 thing im sure, i definitely have better energy than leeling! hahahaha..who gave up after vacuuming A SMALL PORTION of the shop few days back! lolx!

had supper with yanting, leeling and sam! so disappointed initially! because the place we always ate at fisherman v.. disappear!? dont know why also. but so wasted cos i think that was the most comfortable place in fisherman V! and we were like idiots. walked up & down repeatedly finding for that place.
so we end up eating at..the place where me, tony and siowhui went 1year back! know what?! i saw the funny weird auntie(or rather WAITRESS) again!!!! hahahahaha~! and i started laughing when i saw her coming to us for orders! she was the one who wrote on the order paper "raysting" when we ordered "stingray!" 1 year back, she is damn blur, and now..she is still blur! and this time it is stingray again! she actually forget to order stingray for us! hahaha! ok im bad..
but she is really, really, too funny.

ok and yesterday was the most expensive cab fare i'd ever took in my life! $43! from pasir ris-tampines-marine parade-kallang bahru-yishun(finally!!)
ok whatever it is, i still prefer the old place, though the pepper crab isnt as nice as the one we ate yesterday. but, the old 1 still betta la!
and yesterday was the 1st time we(me & yanting) meet sam out!
but next week we're goin to meet up again! ok and yanting says that why nowadays it seems so "happening"! haha. agreed. but fun! i think we should really have gatherings more often, take more photos also! so that i can still remember the angelic TM MJ when i grow senile.

met up with Wenjie just now.. to take handphone from him! so we wenta Simei for supper.. stayed for awhile and headed home cos me and yt was really tired.
i think i must really stop spending for this mth!
grrrr... but i want more programmes, more gatherings, but..more money too! how to? :(

work tml again..with..HG staff.. no fun. i still prefer my own TM staffs.
whatever...no choice!
sleeping time!! nights. (",)

smoke-d @
Saturday, October 14, 2006}

actually chalet ended on sunday.. but was dead dropped when i reached home.. headed to bed till 9pm.. then monday went ktv with Qf, keline n joc. after that met Yun and Wen for dinner.. ate the Teppanyaki at northpoint! so yucky! dont ever eat that! after dinner, crazy Wen and Yun wanted to booze.. so decided to buy 2 bottles of wine backie to Wen's home! TWO! they are freaks! i drank abit at ktv before meeting them!
lolx.. but it was fun.. so long nv really meet them already! asked Xueli along too..but she has got something on.. grrr! muz really arrange a day soon with her! i miss that girl! lolx..

started working yesterday.. and i was damn stoned.. damn tired.. and i daydreamed almost the whole day.. then yanting said: you are very stone"..haha.. of cos lar! after resting for 4 days! oh but i didnt really sleep then!

chalet..was fun lar.. ate, drank, mahjong, talk cock.. lolx! argh but 1 thing i really really regret! when cutting cake, i actually took photo with shiyun and guys..plus xueli they all! which i shouldnt! i should take with them separately..i mean into 2 groups! haiz.. but wat to do now.. aiyah better than dun have.. Peiwen came too..damn i forget to take picture with her also! i was sooOO farking blur that day can!

leeling & yanting they all came late..around 11plus.. at first i was abit disappointed because i thought i could cut the cake with them too..but later i found out that they were preparing the present thats why they were late.. and i love love love their presents! seriously! they bought a necklace with a alphabet P pendant with a gem stone(my fav blue colour)! but the best thing is i love the boX! they made it themselves! and the "cigarettes"! haha.. with leeling doing all the research abt smoking.. thank y'all so much! love u guys!


realised something.. i have been trying to find programmes to occupy myself recently! its a gd thing since ive lost touch with so many of my friends! and i know they are always there for me! and i shouldnt waste anymore of my time of things that are worthless of my time & effort! i will make up to all my dearest soon! one by one ok! :)

meeting samantha, leeling and yanting for supper tmr! its fisherman V again! haha.. excited! hmm..cos sam didnt turned up for the chalet..poor thing she was sicked.. of cos i was abit disappointed but no choice.. but nvr mind lar! still get to meet her up for supper tmr after wrk! hee..

lastly, Rain's concert in singapore is FREAKING $888! and all who is goin is really mad! PLEASE!! U CAN DO BETTER THINGS WITH THAT MONEY OK! that goes to u,leeling! (though i dont think she will be reading my blog! lolx!) pls wake up! ;)
will update more soon! okays.. byes..

smoke-d @
Thursday, October 12, 2006}

2 hours to go, and im off to chalet! haha! hmm..not really excited but very nervous! how! how~!!! freaking afraid can! i dont know why also.. haha~ err.. come to think of it.. its not as if its my wedding! lolx! ok im stupid.

had a busy morning! woke up at freaking 7am to ans a freaking call! arhhhg~ and slept for an hour and my stoopid sis force me to wake up! to drive my mum to market(which the market is only abt 5mins walk from my home!) haha.. but ya la..she got alot of things to carry! hmm im a filial daughter, i know. hahahaha.. after which, slacked at home for abt an hour, then went to drive keline and jocelyn.. *tired!
and i gotta go now! to pack my bags! i havent pack yet!! so lazy! byeeee.. happy birthday to me! ;)

smoke-d @
Friday, October 06, 2006}

just reached home! went supper with my sisters.. then drove home from TPY..so nervous can! so many cars!! am very disappointed with my own driving skills now.. so retarded! but, i havent been driving for months! haiz.. whatever!

tomorrow goin to chalet le.. hmm.. haha.. speechless.. dont know how it wil be like on Sat! excited+nervous! just hope everyone will turn up on Sat! and im having a freaking fever now! damn.. everytime got some programme on sure will sick! :(

work was fun today! with lee ling and yan ting! they are really kai xin guos..lolx.. oh almost forget 1 thing! Samantha is coming on Sat also! so shock! thought she was "entertaining" me by saying "i think i can come". lolx! but today she told lee ling that she wil be coming! haha~ haiz.. but for Guohua..sian.. now got gf then different already.. msg him this afternoon telling him must come and hope to see him! yet he reply "k.. i will try.." forget it lar.. those who come, i'll be very grateful, those who dont, then .. lidat lor! haha

ok la i think its time for me to go and pack my things already.. :) wil blog again when i'm back! monday! byesss..

smoke-d @
Friday, October 06, 2006}

another tiring day working.. slept at nearly 4am and had to work at 10am shift! 12 hours! i was in a daze for the whole day! plus, i was in very foul mood also..so everything was so terrible for me today.

sometimes, i asked myself.. why humans are so mean.. why humans can only remember the bad thing u did, but not the gd things?!

apparently, i didnt get the answer. or perhaps, God can tell me the answer.

how to forget abt everything..when u've been trying ur best to give the best of u.. i mean.. maybe..ppl might think that u'r not the best in their heart.. but..to me, i think its already the best of me that i've gave.. & i have no regrets at all.

though when everything happened, when i wasnt ready at all.. i thought, i regret for wasting my time and effort on ppl who dont even appreciate me.. but now, i think.. it is only when ppl grow up, grow stronger after each fall we encounter and solve..
it really suck when each time u fall, and when u finally get ur feets up again.. then some things will just obstruct ur way, it just makes u tripped again! i mean..how many times must tis repeat in ur whole lifetime? i'm so so so tired of it..

now, i really hoped for life to be peaceful.. i dont want to repeat the same mistakes again.. all i want for is just a simple life..

anyway, i was really feeling terrible for the whole of today, until i met Samantha online.. she is so kind! asking me if i am fine(bcuz of my terrible msn nick) and to take care.. lolx..although i only saw her once before! when she came to TM to work.. but i felt so touched when she send her regards...at least, she made me realised that, there's still people and friends out there who cares for me! thanks Samantha! :) nights!

smoke-d @
Wednesday, October 04, 2006}

feeling lil' down recently.. lotsa things..dont seem to be goin the way i wanted it to be.. sometimes i wonder.. what really causes hatred? love that's not being appreciated? i suppose. when u really think/thought that u've done so much, put in so much effort but in other's eyes.. it is always -not enough- why? why?


anyway, kinda' missing grandma.. she's coming to my chalet! :)

haiz but for friends.. everyone have something on next Sat so 90% of my friends are coming late. like 11pm or later. !!!

met up with Pearlyn just now.. been so long since we last sat down to chat. haha..she's still the same old Pearlyn since sec sch.. lolx.. listened to her grumbles, lots of vulgarities cum complaints.. lolx! but fun! at least someone entertained me for the night.. :)

its working day tmr again! S-I-A-N. actually working is not that bored or bad la..but.. looking helplessly at the sales going bad-worse-worst..makes me feel sad.. i think i am not a gd supervisor. though i really try hard and think real hard... really hope century square's sembawang music will close soon! i want my sales back to the top 2!! i want to win JP!! boo!!
:(

smoke-d @
Monday, October 02, 2006}