haiz im sooOO pooooorrrrrr... pay day is still 5days away..omgomg!!!

27.04.07 (fri)
i realise we've been going shin every fri.. it seems like a MUST now.. i'd rather go on fri than sat.. haha.. reason's simple.. cos i dont like to work on saturdays..
official drunk cat didnt join us last night cos she became "sick cat" instead... hahaha..
but i think most of them were "high" last night.. LOL.. i think me and shan spent 20mins vomiting in the toilet!
supper @ tian tian and reached home around 5plus..

been calling up a friend recently and she have been avoiding our calls.. till yesterday she finally answered my call.. well.. pretty worried for her.. i really hope she is fine now and i shall visit her next week on my off day!
and im not allowed to tell the rest abt what happened to her which makes me feel very bad as i know that every1 have been worrying and wondering what's happening to her for not answering calls..
BUT, i still have to keep this secret and im sure soon.. she will let them know once everything is over.. =)

im so tired.. after sleeping for 7hrs though......

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.. I NEED MONEY .... BAAADDDDLLLLYYYY....
=) tonight!!!!

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Saturday, April 28, 2007}

KNN CAN I STOP LAO SAI!!!!!
I LAO UNTIL I DAMN FRUSTRATED NOW LIAO LOR! AND I GOTTA WORK TMR!!! grrrr....
tmr die die have to go work liao ler.. sianz.. if tmr still LS..wah!! TM de toilet so faraway from my shop lor!! PLUS, dunno why everyday have to queue up for the toilet though they have 6 or 7 cubicles! =(

whole day doing nothing at home.. woke up at 10am and decided to turn on my pc to see if CH is online.. but no ley.. haha.. suay.. mum bought porridge but i didnt manage to even finish half of it..
watched The Pursuit Of Happyness!(its not spelling error or typo..the movie name is Happyness instead of Happiness) nice nice! another true life story! wanted to watch it when it was screened but..didnt ask any1 cos i know no one would want to watch this kind of film.. as ppl around me.. haiz.. bo standard de lah!! waahaha.. but i reeeeali love inspiring and touching true stories..any1 got anymore gd recommendation?

guess wad? after watching the show, it makes me felt .. that im not so poor.. LOLX~!!! really!! and i really felt alot better after watching it!! anyone poor now? i can lend u the dvd.. IM ALWAYS WILLING TO SHAREEE! HAHAHA
shishi came my hse for dinner after she knocked off.. cos mum cooked her fav fried chicken.. suppose to be chicken wing..haha but mum went market and ntuc and it was all sold out!
have a few back-dated pics to upload.. not much.. i think 2 or 3 only..haha.. cos ppl keep saying "why ur blog no pictures de?"! :/


Jennifer & Me @ shin bar
the most polite and gentle waitress @shin

haiz.. the vicious 2.. who made me tipsy b4 1am!

Yvonne and Me - i think i look drunk

2nd attempt.. i still look drunk. gave up!

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007}

i'm so sick!! =(

was totally fine ytd afternoon.. just felt abit hang over.. but suddenly had fever at night and feels terrible man!! took off today to rest at home.. abit betta now but still got no appetite.. :( and i really mean no appetite hor dont laugh u ppl..

was working on monday.. supposed to meet Leeqing aft work but she wasnt feeling well.. so our date was cancelled..
well..later at night i decided to msg Qf to ask her out for a drink..
p/s: i didnt bluff u leh!! just that u didnt ask when im off ma and coincidentally, im off the next day! lolx..
stayed at shin till 1.30am.. all thanks to qf who kept asking WS and Yvonne to come over and ask me to drink..
so, i ended up vomitting twice for the night..

ive been feeling sick over the past 1 week.. haiz.. why ar.. like kana some "gong tao" lidat.. either diarrhea or vomit leh.. sianz.. i better get well soon! cos i gonna drink this fri! hahaha.. and PQ gonna treat us this fri!

**i cant continue blogging cos a irritating girl is standing beside me..staring at what im blogging....

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007}

been feeling kinda down today.. or should i say nowadays? dont ask me why..
cos i dont even know! lolx.. ok i sound silly... i'm being over-paranoid recently i think.. sigh....
this year is a whole lot of shit for me.. cham liao lah.. a new year a new start.. guess i shall re-phrase it.. a new year a new load of shit/prob awaiting u! haha! generally, everything isnt goin too well for me so far..

firstly, work isnt too gd. facing the probability of my outlet closing down! =(
secondly, personal problems are all overwhelming me at this point of time! double siansiation!
thirdly, this year..is the poorest year i'd ever since i started working!
fourthly, beloved wai po passed away.

seems like humans can nv be satisfied with what they have.. when u'd a buddy, u think they understand u deep down. but when the bond gets deeper, u think they dont actually understand u and expect more.. well, im one of those.(i guess?)

good times really dont last.. they never did.

i'm pretty confused right now.. it really feels terrible man! how i wished i didnt have to hide so many things to myself.. haiz...

i'm not someone gd in words, especially that face-to-face kind. guess i'll kind of stumble.. GAHHHHHHHS!

to ppl who knows me.. and understand me deep down.. i'm not the kind who forsakes friends over small issues. i nv will.
friends and family are like angels to me. i know they will always be there for me when i need them.
sometimes, i tend to ignore/hack care when too many things happen.. cos i'm troubled and i just need a break.
i'm not someone who likes to bring unhappiness to others and instead i wish i can always make them happy. but i aint no God.. i aint no saint.. all i ever do is try.

haiz.. suddenly feel my heart aching saying all this.. dropppp ittt!

my long awaited off day is coming soon!! keke.. 1 more day to suffer and tues i can rot the whole day liao!
gonna meet up with Leeqing tmr after work.. im so much looking forward to it lah cos its been donkey years since we last catch up with each other..and we even lost touch! but the world is soOO small.. i actually bumped into her at Bugis when i went for my eyebrow trimming 2weeks back! =)

was planning to plan for some programme or rather maybe catching up with some old friends on tues.. BUT!! muz be cancelled liao.. cos bro big mole coming.. knew it when he ask me when im off!!! lolx.. need to help him rip cds and he will bring his thumdrive over when he knock off.. haiz.. thought he say say only so i said i wont be going out.. end up he say if he comes up and nv see me.. "he will let me die"... haha..

ok so there goes my off day! oh! but im free at night! after 8pm! LOLX.. =p

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Monday, April 23, 2007}

its been so long since i last felt -i dont know what to blog- lolx.. cos im using kelines lappie now in the room! on my bed!! lolx.. am feeling pretty tired but just couldnt sleep.. well.. slept for 3hrs on fri.. 6am to 9am.. then went to work.. shacked!!

20 April 07 (fri)
worked till 10pm and initially wanted to go home after work as i was feeling so damn sleepy at work.. was already waiting for a cab then suddenly Nana..(Aina) called.. asked me to go shin bar as she'll be going with few of her colleagues.. so me and weiwen joined them..
luckily we still have balance from last tues.. but was finished up so soon by ww..hahaha.. cos he lost playing games with me..!
so when nana's friends came, they opened another bot.. and we started drinking like crazie..
thought it might felt awkward as we dont know her friends but luckily they are all very fun.. played games and dice.. was kinda tipsy yesterday.. after so long!! i vomitted like hell lor.. cant even remember exactly how much we drank yesterday cos ah meng also opened 1 bot for us..and somehow i remember seeing 2 and a 1/2 bot on the table..dont know is it im drunk or wad.. dunno why every1 ended up taking photos for like 1hour lor.... i think can make a photo album liao..
well i gotta hell shock outta me when Yvonne suddenly cried.. cos somehow she dont look like someone who will cry infront of others..haha.. im more used to her being noisy and crazy.. spend some time talking to her while the others were taking self-photos" like mad..
well well.. hope that she's fine now.. dont waste tears on bitches and idiots..! =)

initially planned to leave at 1am but ... end up staying there till 3am and waited for shan to knock off then go eat supper..AGAIN!! but this time is lorong 3.. some coffeeshop selling seafood..
reached home at 5am and slept at 6.. woke up at 10am.. *tiredz

am being quite demoralised at work recently.. i guess its because of JiAhui's resignation.. :( it is too sudden lah..
haiz.. who's gonna listen to my complaints next time? who's gonna give me gd advices at work?? sianz..had the urge to buy newspaper that day to start searching for jobs then suddenly ashley called.. said "YOU DONT BE THE NEXT ONE TO DUA ME HUH!!!"
seriously i also dont knw what i gonna do if i quit MJ.. im so attached to it now liao i really cant bear to leave.. but coming to think of it.. salary is really miser.. w/o commission now...i cant even spend like how i used to in the past.. at least, in the past, i'll at least get $300-$450 de commission.. haiz.. drop it!! it was already 1 and a half year back then..

for now.. besides taking a step at a time.. i cant think of any better decision.. =)

gawd im really getting sleepy now.. think my sight is becoming blurrish.. haha.. ok i know it sounds abit exaggerating.. BUT I AM! LOL..

lastly.. why cant ppl understand what i mean by LEAD A LIFE? haiz.. the whole world knows what is exactly making me so pissed, but only u. did my blog entry conveyed the wrong msg or meaning? all i wanted to say is "ur life wont end without guys.. NO ONE ON EARTH CANT SURVIVE WITHOUT THE PRESENCE OF ANY OTHER HUMANS.
all we ever need to do is to move on. make ur life better instead of making it more miserable. chinese idioms says "jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai! lolx..

and im also very sure that i was there for u too when u'r troubled. but until.. i realise all my..or rather our(everybody) words and advices always vanish into the air after few days..
and its definitely not bcoz of a small issue that caused this to happen. its all accumulated....

-----1 of the saddest thing in life is to be blinded by LOVE....

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Sunday, April 22, 2007}

what's happening to me??
ive been rather .. bad tempered recently.. easily irritated.. frustrated... i dont get whats in my mind....

17.04.2007
wooohh.. it was shin bar night yesterday! was kinda bored at work so asked PQ, Keline and WW if they wanna go.. and they are all so ON!! beginning to reeeali love their companion!! reached there kinda early.. i think b4 10pm..
played a new .. sickening game.. with them and wenshan and yvonne.. wat zhong ji yi ban.. and i kept drinking lor! worst thing is.. i drank whenever im the banker. hell! when i knew the number!!
well, im lousy at mind guessing. the are all pros lor.. oh, except keline. lol.. she's no better too.
PQ left earlier..around 1am.. and me and ww waited for shan to finish work.. SUPPER TIME! oh i didnt know shan is soooO irritating.. she sang horribly in ah meng's car! gawwd.. scared the shit outta me and when i heard it i doubted its her and stoned for like 5secs..

reached at around 3..watched football and slept at 5.. end up!! nv go work.. haha.. im so tired! hee..can rest for 2 days cos im also off today..
was nua-ing the whole day at home.. slept till 1pm.. ate.. watched Desperate Housewives.. then dinnertime!

well since im well rested today.. wondering what wil be up for tmr!! hope i wont get lazy tmr.. =)

haiz.. suddenly calculated my bank's money left.. realised im soOO poooorrrrr! and i really mean POOR. deducting insurance and bills that have to be paid by end of this mth, im left with TWO-HUNDRED-&-SEVENTY-BUCKS! omg!! i cant survive!!! unless i strike lottery..

how about my aussie trip next mth?! so poor.. haiz.. if im still that poor by then.. i cant go there eat grass liao.. grass there should be fresher.. :(

u know..i really hate it when i'd to ignore friends.. its not my capability to do so but at the same time i hate it when things happen repeatedly! why dont ppl put themselves into other's situation and THINK?! im not being cruel or mean or unforgiving, but this time, this really piss me off. and i guess ignoring is all that i can ever do, cos i dont wish for the same thing to happen again and again. like.. every week. all i wanted to say is, every1 has their own probs.. and u need to be there for others if u need them to be there for u. i always believe give and take.
IMPT: ON THIS FUCKING EARTH WHICH IS SEEMINGLY TO HELL, THERE'S NO ONE WHO CANT LIVE WITHOUT ANYONE! LEAD A LIFE. COS ALL U EVER NEED IS TIME AND DETERMINATION TO END ALL MISER AND TORTURE WHICH IS TAINTING UR LIFE!

----LIFE isn't too good for u to make it worse

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Thursday, April 19, 2007}

3.30am now and i'm still sitting infront of the pc.. kinda tired but cant sleep yet i guess.. gonna be online till the matches end.. if not.. tmr "settlement day" i gonna be as poor as a beggar.. so far so good.. at least covering back abit.. =) the rest next week bah..

well.. woke up this morning at 6.15am.. didnt send sis to the airport cos i slept at 3plus i guesSS? send her downstairs to get a cabbie.. exchanged a few sms with her and fell asleep at 7am.. hmm.. expectedly i overslept for work lor.. supposed to open the shop at 10am but reached at 11.15am.. Ethel was already outside the shop waiting for me lor..lolx.. ok weird taxi uncle i met today.. to the extent.. i dont know whether i should be angry.. but.. im rather amused..

realised he started the meter at $3.50 instead of $2.50.. started looking at the meter when i was nearby the malay temple near my hse.. and BY RIGHT, the meter should be around.. 2.70 ba.. knn but the meter was $3.80 then! cannot be lor! its such a short distance lor! ok but forget it cos i thought he's old so chin cai lah.. he's arond 70s' bah i guess..

throughout the whole journey he's so damn talkative lah.. actually i really hate talkative cabbie uncles.. COS WHEN THEY TALK, THEY TEND TO DRIVE SO FUCKING S.L.O.W! wah.. from SLE to CTE he drove at 60rpm..
kept telling me how smart his wife is lah.. blar..blar..blar.. i'm just not in the mood for it cos uncle..i'm fucking late! *but in order to be kind, i kept quiet.. the worst part has yet to come.

reached Tampines Century Sq.. fare was $14.60..(usually $13+).. so i gave him $16.. and he only gave me back a fucking $1 coin!!! WAH SEH! uncle thinks i'm stupid or .. do i look very kind?? HORRID MAN.. boy i swear if u're in ur early 40s or 50s'.. i sure expose u de lor.. or else i would have also note down ur car plate no..
i was so late and cannot be bothered..
horrid..horrid..horrid..

1 or 2 bucks aint anything to me.. i can even give it as tips to u.. BUT the thingy is.. I HATED UR DISHONESTY! c'mon lor.. this is ur job, ur income ur business.. shouldnt u be more honest? the fucking thing is u still try to act lor.. upon alighting while he gave me back my change, he said "lai..uncle zhu(wish) ni yong yuan qing chun hor..byebye".. wah faint man!

i respect and pity u cos i tink its quite pitiful to still work at this age.. but.. u just make me feel like i've boarded a dishonest robber cab. well.. its a silvercab anyway.. haiz.. whatever...

met a few "pissful" matters today..

really disappointed in ppl being dishonest.. to me, i'm someone who writes "happy" or "unhappy" on my face..
i really had enough of accomodating others.. well to me nw.. BO CHAP!

meaning of being a true friend..?
personally i think the 1st factor should be -frank-
haiz cannot emphasize too much here..lol cos more and more ppl are reading my blog now.. hahaha..
just trying to nag abit here cos ive been feeling quite unhappy over some irritating matters recently. am not going to continue faking or rather hiding my unhappiness.
HACK CARE!!

*****i cant believe.. humans with proper/perfect eyesight can get so blind. that explains the song "if love is blind"... (-_-")

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Monday, April 16, 2007}

damned... beginning to hate saturdays..
the same routine every sat especially if i'm off.
e.g shin bar on fri night.. sat sleep the whole afternoon off..
force myself to stay at home no matter how boring have the thought that i could concentrate on my bettings..
so..end up.. LOSE!

its forever the same de leh! why uh? i'm so cursed on sat!! *maybe people that ive offended prays and curse me losing money every weekend... lol.. forget it.. hai you ming tian.. hahaha!!

yesterday at shin was so fun lah! i was really in the mood to drink lah but PQ was sick..so she couldnt drink much..and she's 1 of the better drinker lor..sianz..
then keline also buang(always).. drink abit then want to die lidat.. WEAK lah.. she still say so LOUD: tonight i sure wont drunk!! hmm.. i've always doubted.. haha suddenly remember! they went outside to wait for me while i find yvonne to pass her phone and cigs.. i was at the door peepin' out and saw keline merlion-ing again! kakaka!!

well.. wanna thank Yvonne.. for telling me so many "philosophy bout Life".. sounds gd and comforting.. 1 thing im kinda sure and confirmed since she's 1 of wenshan's closest friend at shin. she's definitely not a faker around the world. so frank and straighforward. not like some(or rather ALOT?) of the other waitresses..damn fake.. just hook around so that u will open bottles from them..then open le they suddenly disappear! wont even take a second look at u when they walk pass lor! got my lesson once.. kana F by wenshan..haha.. i wont fall into their trap again!

thinking abt it.. their boss also another fucker! bloody hell think that we dont know the rule for booking tables/sofa..damned.. we reached shin at 10.35pm then the boss asked Yvonne to ask us to change our sofa to tables..
upon reaching Yvonne was near the entrance door.

Yvonne: hey so late..i couldnt get u nor wenshan..
turned to her boss : they reached le..cannot change liao.
Boss: total how many of them?
Me: SIX! wats wrong..
Boss: ok lor 6..behind got table ma..
Me: Yvonne, i thought as long as we reach B4 11pm, else our sofa wont be taken away right?
Yv: ya u all book le so shouldnt be a prob they cant cancel it de..
turns to her boss and said : eh they reach b4 11 leh..

dammit lor.. only then her boss bo bian.. sicked! and we stood there for like 5mins over ur brainless head thinking we might want to change.
u think so what u'r the boss? doesnt mean u can change ur rules & regulations as and when u like lor!
FYI, we booked the sofa on Tues alright? its none of my business that in the very last min, u got other customers who wants the sofa! so what there are 10 of them?! point is, the sofa is booked..

sian... this week alone lost $260 liao... starting to believe that humans really cant get desperate for money.. nv mind lah..tonight sleep early then maybe wai po come into my dream and give me 4 gold numbers.. hehe..

sis wil be leaving tmr le.. still thinking if i should send her off then go to work.. but she say she will board the flight at 8plus.. then what i gonna do from 8plus to 10?? (-_-)
time flies man... gonna miss her againz.. hope 2years will be over REAL SOON!! sianz.. sianz..

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Sunday, April 15, 2007}

after reading LR's blog..
it made me miss granny terribly again... dont know why i'd the hunch to eat tau sar pau for lunch today.. i always remembered that i hated tau sar pau when i was a kid.. we always preferred meat pau.. but grandma loves tau sar.. and always asked us to share half with her.. guess thats when i begin to like it..

told yanting when i was eating.. "my grandma used to love this alot... but when she gets older she dont really eat it anymore as she basically didnt have the appetite to eat anything.."

sometimes...she just suddenly appear in my mind.. and i always try my very best to hold my tears..

friends always say.. dont be sad..she's leaving for gd as all her pain leaves her.. no.. i just need someone who can tell me tat she didnt leave us.. she's just at my uncle hse and i still can visit her whenever i want....

i tend to miss her esp after drinking at shin.. always staring at the tv screen..listening to the songs.. and think of all bout her when she was around..
i cannot forget the scenario of the "big head dolls" during the ritual at the last day of the wake.. i couldnt bring myself to accept the fact that they are performing for grandma...

life is so vulnerable.. it is so cruel.. why the hell are we living on this fucking earth.. yet in the end, we'll all have to leave in time to come.. then what is the fucking purpose of living? to experience the pain of losing ur love ones? to see them leave one by one? hell.. really dread the feeling of thinking bout it..

wai po.. if u hear me... really wanna let u know how remorseful i am for not being able to see u for the last time..... how i hated myself for being rude and disrespectful towards u when i grew up as u always doted all of us when we were young..
i regret for being angry with u when u always nag or talk funny..
i regret for shouting at u sometimes when u couldnt hear what i say..
i regret for ignoring u when u talked to me..
i regret for not wanting to share ur bed with u..though u always attempt to persuade us to..
i regret for not visiting u when u were staying in sembawang..
i regret for not cherishing u when u were still around..
i regret to offer my cigarettes to u cos i think u might have lived a 'lil more without smoking those ciggies.. even it is for a few more days..
i regret for throwing temper at u when u tried to wake me up for sch/work..
i regret for hating u when u pee in the kitchen then i accidentally stepped onto it..

"regret" is something that always come late.. too late for us to try to amend for someone.. thats when ppl say the word..

but if im given the chance.. again.. i'll really really love her and not taking her for granted again..
i will not scold her for her silly actions again..

remember she was sick one time and only me and mum was at home.. so mum asked me to carry her to the nearby clinic.. wanted to piggyback her but she's scared.. on that same day.. i rmb i felt damn sad..for seeing her so sick.. and i fed her lunch at home.. cried while feeding her.. then i see her eyes also turned red and watery.. think she muz be feeling touched at that moment too. it was my 1st time.. using a spoon to feed her.. sigh............

好想你
因為沒有了你﹐世界好像都變灰了
時間奪走了我心愛的你﹐也讓我永遠的失去你。。。
敬愛外婆的我﹐卻等到失去了她﹐才發現我會如此惦記著她。。。。

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Friday, April 13, 2007}

Daniel Powter's -Bad day suits me today.
i was sooOO pissssed today.. over a fucking brainless staff. god damn it.. i was so angry that i think i've totally spoilt my image in the shop. i dont think other sups will react like me today..i actually got so HOT that i push the whole stack of discs on the floor and it flew out of the shop..lolx.. i think .. this is the ever 1st time i reacted lidat during work.. usually i only vent my anger like that at home..or anywhere else except during work.
ok im just simply lazy to elaborate on what happened today. but anyway, fuck it.. he think i will beg him to stay just because company's short of manpower? because im alone today? he's so helluva WRONG. go to hell, motherfucker! i've come too far to let u underestimate me. and u? just another green pea in my eyes. with ur working attitude, i bet u wont go far. BOO!

coming to think of it.. is being strict with staffs, and then sacking/asking them to resign my forte or my weakness?? i dont know. but i definitely dont wish to waste my time on training someone who isnt interested in my work. think im someone vice versa in real life compared to during work-time. real life, i always cant make up my mind.. can therefore, gets very wishy-washy.. but at work.. i dont know why i can be so different? am i being too cruel? but i just cant control my temper when i see staffs showing me attitude..
*Librans wants and demands for perfection..

and this stupid staff told me today : u dont even show basic respect to ur staff, thats why no one wants to work under u? after thinking bout it, the 1st thing that shot me was - Is it true? i hesitated lah i admit. but.. after analysing it.. i dont think so. who are u to gain my respect when u dont even respect me? and pls, talking abt it.. Ashley didnt even want u after ur 1mth training at CP okie! i was the blardy stupid one who asked her to give u the chance and said i'm willing to try u out! fark.. damn regret.. hao xing yet now.. "bei gou yao"(let dog bite in chinese)! CB..

i think im just too lenient towards staff.. and i only blow up after putting up with them for some time.. thats why when things happen, it is too late.
i need to change. i dont even think that im strict enough now.. all this stupid new staff see me quiet quiet.. everything also chin cai.. think i good to be bullied. fuck off lor.. i'm so sorry if U think so!

haiz.. dont wanna talk abt things that dampen my mood le cos this matter had spoiled the whole of my day..

tmr gonna work till 6pm..then meet the Lims' for dinner.. a pre-celebration for LR's bday cos sis wil be leaving on sunday le... think i might want to send sis off that day ba.. anyway i'll be working also..

wah.. sis came back for 1mth le.. but it seems to pass so fast lor.. didnt feel like she's back for so long already.. 4more days she need to go back le....think she must be feeling quite sian also bah..
:( haiz..
shall countdown to 6weeks and 4 days when she leaves on sunday, 15th April. hehe.. cos by then... PERTH!!! HERE I COME!!! jeez! im so excited for the trip lah! firstly bcuz can visit sis.. secondly can celebrate her bday(the reason why we chose to go in May 31st), thirdly... cos i've nvr been to such faraway country b4! keke.. ok i know i sound like a mountain tortoise.. but im just being honest.. haha...

good programmes are lined up for this week..
tmr = dinner with family
fri = shin bar
sat = im off! think i wont be goin anywhere ba if sis will be staying at home that day.
sun = might be sending her off.. then.. go work.. sianz..

updates on fri again bah! (if there's anything shameful anyone does on fri night~)

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Thursday, April 12, 2007}

i think i had a "not bad weekend" spent..lolx...

it really feels gd not working.. slacking at home the whole day.. but it nv lasted long enuff for me.. every off day seems to pass twice faster than usual days.. haiz..

5.04.2007 (thurs, pub holiday's eve)
went to our frequent hang out again..shin bar.. same place..same people.. lolx... oh..but that day Tim and Meng teck joined us.. who was drunk? LOL. no one can fight for this championship with Qf.. gawwwd... she can hardly remember wad she did lor! i was FORCED to drink.. play games with her she still not satisfied..cos she lose then she end up have to drink..lol..
so she tried all means to force me to drink without playing games! darnnn..

E.g:

1. tickle my neck
2. pinch weiwen's didi cos he refused to help her wake me.
3. follow me wherever i sit
4. ask Yvonne and Wenshan not to help me drink after drinking couple of cups with her.
5. forced me to "blow" the stupid newly opened bottle for 5 secs!!

damned.. and so she counted like.. 1..........2.......3.......4........5....... fuck! the bottle was just opened lor.. so the martel flowed out was blardy thick.. i'd to swallow abit down b4 she continues counting again.. and told me after that cant drink green tea..at most eat 1 cube ice.. SIAO! hack care..haha.. quickly snatched the green tea and drink!

after shin bar..waited for shan to clock out.. then we went for supper..at geylang.. with weiwen gina and her bf.. headed home at 5am.. and woke up at 8plus for work.. half dead.

after work on fri.. met up with weiwen and keline.. watched "The Reaping" at yishun gv..haha..fell asleep after 45mins.. damn tired lor.. and .. the show is just like some typical thriller..which didnt thrill me at all! wenta mcdonalds cos i needed coffee! haha... chatted awhile then went home at around.. 3am i think?

worked on sat.. and had to wake up at 8plus again! wah i was like almost dead. i guess i walk like corpses? i regretted drinkin the coffee after movies.. cos i couldnt sleep till 6am!

thats all for the weekend updates.. as for yest and today.. its expected that i didnt go anywhere.. sometimes i think i'm not human..lol.. who the hell will sleep for 3hrs and work for 12hrs for 2days!

almost forget!! i'd dinner at swensen with siss and Pq..cos sis had a $50 voucher at swensen.. then PQ paid the balance..hehe.. after dinner..we went to watsons to buy facial cream.. lighting-whitening cream! then PQ left first cos she was feeling sick..

hehe.. gonna go wash up and try using the lotion..

***so looking forward to shin bar on friday!! JEEZ!!! confirmed khakis - PQ, Me, Keline & Weiwen.. wad abt the rest? =P long time nv update photos le.. shall put up some..soon....!

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Sunday, April 08, 2007}

fark. some fucking dumb ass(es) spoilt my fucking off day!!
and this is the 100th post.. and i thought i will definitely sure write something more meaningful down when i reach the 100th post. DAMNIT.

somemore humans seems to be so contradicting. talk differently, act differently. the worst.. push all the blames to others when the problem was caused by themself.

fugly side of humans.

funny sms i received saying im making things difficult for her. and she wasted the whole day making phone calls yet the outing cancelled. DARN U LAH OK. who's making things difficult for who? so what u quarrelled with ur friend and bf today? does that mean ive to keep my cool and shut my mouth?

1 strong saying. i wont give a damn for ppl, who dont even give a thought for others. back to the point, why should i? its all abt how u handle matters. nobody's fault. just some dumb ass who's trying to point out that its other's fault rather than admitting her error. that alone makes it a point for me getting so pissed right now.

damn wasted the whole of my off day. Nonsense.
guess it has been 2 weeks since i last got so fucked up. damned.

smoke-d @
Thursday, April 05, 2007}

haha.. tried using chinese to post an entry.. (somemore its traditional chinese!) stupid pc abit siao liao.. type halfway then cannot use already.. but luckily.. it stopped at the part where i think it sounds like the ending of the entry.. hahahaha..
shall try to continue next time when the chinese programma can work.. but want to blog in chinese must have that inspiration first..

haha! i'm beginning to love the traditional chinese words.. looked and sound very emo.. =p

will be going shin bar with them later again... hope i wont hang over the next day.. cos tmr's Good Friday but im gonna work..sianz.. from now till june i muz work on all the P.Hs... to earn extra off day..

hehe and tickets to Aussie has been confirmed already!! this trip burnt a big hole in my bank account lor.. almost penniless!!! now.. every month end.. i'll have like less than 50bucks left.. sianz.. luckily i didnt spend my CNY red packet money.. if not i dont think i can even buy the air tickets!

kinda hope it will be cold in aussie in june... hee.. cos singapore is always so HOTTT!!
but if its cold, have to buy winter wear.. which means.. damage again!!

*yawNzzz......
im getting lazier now leh.. in the past i used to wake up b4 noon on my off days..no matter how late i sleep.. but now.. its always 3 of 4pm..
conversation with mum at 3pm today..

Mom: ger! u still dont want to wake up ar?!
Me: arrr.. hanah...
Mom: its 3pm liao hor!!
Me: *continue ignoring her
Mom: YOU CAN EAT BREAKFAST, LUNCH AND DINNER TOGETHER!! (together as in.. eat all in 1 meal.. haha)
*slams door...

hahaha.. think she quite funny.. every night i watch tv then she keep reminding me to go sleep.. now i off can sleep le..then keep waking me up..

ohh and i'd a healthy breakfast and lunch today!! siew mai x2.. steamed yam cake x2 1/2 but now abit hungry liao lor.. sianz.. shall bear for it awhile more.. will be meeting QF earlier to have dinner outside shin bar.. Bah Kut Teh i'm coming!!! Perth i'm coming!!!! (-_-) mad...

smoke-d @
Thursday, April 05, 2007}

其實﹐每當我聽見這首歌時。。都會不禁地想起于你的回憶
一切仿彿都還沒過去
去了和你一起去過的地方﹐一起曾經喜歡用餐的地方。。曾經經常去的熟食擱
讓我好懷念過去。
但﹐思念並不能帶我回到與你分享的那段日子
卻只能讓我的心更加的痛。。。

你永遠都不會知道﹐也不能體會到我的心多疼

當你忍心否定了我們的過去﹐我的心都碎了。。。
一切也就這樣結束了。。。。

常常都想﹐是否你也和我一樣。。
聽見了會讓你勾起我們的回憶的歌曲嗎﹖

smoke-d @
Thursday, April 05, 2007}

i havent been updating for 1 week i guess.. been so lazy to blog..esp after so much that has happened.. moreover, ive been staying at home pretty much recently.. so.. got nothing much to blog too.. =)

friday went to shin bar.. dont need to illustrate on who went.. cos its always the same old bunch of us.. but that day got a special GUEST >>>> Guo Hua.. hahaha.. its been AGES since we last hang out lor.. years? definitely. remember that we used to frequent Leon's ktv last time.. am really really glad that we could hang out again.. and this must be mention! he's still the same-old gentleman i used to know.. guess guys like him have already extinct.. hehe..
hope that we'll get to meet up again.. hopefully we wont have to wait for another 2 years!

eh..sometimes im thinking.. are we hooked onto shin bar? its so weird but i see everyone of us liked going shin bar though there's so many other places to get ourselves drunk right? =)

well.... been wondering these few days.. am i being over-paranoid? or its just plain clear of what i see and feels? haiz.. im really in deep dilemma... i just hope to get my answers for all this .. confusions.. gah or rather matters lah..lol..

sianz.. doing basically NOTHING everyday.. been slacking at home so much recently..dont even feel like working(all the time).. lolx.. ohooh... this is important!! heard my blog's music?? gawwddd..nice right? this is my 1st and i really mean FIRST TIME..liking J-POP songs! i mean i used to like some korean songs from the dramas.. but i've nv ever liked japanese pop b4..
ppl who works with me knows that i know nothing abt j-pop.. product knowledge of them is - NIL! famous artist like BOA and AYUMI.. i dont even bother to play their cd or take a look at them.. but im now soOO hooked on BOA's new album..
song titled - our love ~to my parents~..

actually b4 changing my blog music to this, i hesitated between this and ayumi's - heaven.. another freaking nice track.. but anyway i chose this, plainly because.. this is the ever first japanese song that caught my attention. believe me, its the 1st jap album that i've brought home to rip into my pc.. hahahaa.. i finally know why so many youngsters are crazy for ayumi and BOA.. but i prefer BOA.. heehee..

ok enough of the above cos i know alot of u who reads my blog wont appreciate jap songs de..haha..

6 more hours to go..before ive to wake up for work.. SIANSIATION..... luckily i'm claiming time-off tmr..hee..

I WANNA WATCH MUSIC AND LYRICS.. AND MR BEAN'S HOLIDAY!!! ANYONE? =p

smoke-d @
Wednesday, April 04, 2007}