cant breathe!! didnt go to work today..really tired..plus stoopid flu..
wah i am using a roll of toilet paper!
yesterday was..disastrous.. ha.. supposed to reach work at 10am but was late for 20mins! was pacing to shop..then saw BOSS! sitting outside waiting for me! hahahaha.. but luckily he didnt nag or anything..
later im meeting up with keline n jocelyn! hee.. to play badminton! lolx.. think ive got too much toxic in my body thats why im sick..must sweat them out!
haiz guess i'll have to see doctor later! got no flu medicine! actually have lar..but expired! n i ate 1 just now! work again tmr! :(
guess im too lazy to blog now.. cuz of the blocked nose! time to rest now.. byez!

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006}

whooo!! lee hom's coming singapore for a concert on oct!! wah!! kinda excited but..wondering who's gonna join me? lolx.. in d past i thought he's only a gd looking ABC chap.. but after watching his concert on dvd for countless times, im sooO hooked on him! yes he is indeed very gd looking! but wad really attracted my attention was the first track, "gai shi ying xiong", when he rapped the part Jin rap in the original recording of the song! wah he sound so gd can! even better than Jin lor! & the kind of look when he rap! opps..did i mention i love "rappers" with that kind of look when they can really rap?? lolx. anyway leehom is really really HOT!

wenta watch "click" on monday with keline n joc.. not bad! comedy + emotions! sad tho..but didnt really cry..cuz stoopid wenjie told me the ending! hahahaha.. was thinking, wad if ive that universal remote? at first, my answer to keline was "yes! i want it!" but after watching.. yea i think i dont need it.. why should i or rather humans want it to fast forward their lives? i mean be it gd or bad, its ur life meant for YOU to experience it, lead it or overcome it.. & i never want to miss anyone impt in my life..not even losing them and nv even realise when they are gone! :)

daily life for the past 2 weeks revolved only work & work..still work.. but im so proud of us! me, yanting & wenjie! for finishing what i promised Boss to finish by tmr! hee.. though still left with lil wee bit of them..but sure can finish by tmr! oOH! this time, wont let him look down on us! hahaha ok im proud.

bye~~ my bed is missing me.. ooh..lastly, i hate u. for ur unfairness & unreasonable u shown, apparently not the 1st time. whatever, im not so bothered now. nights!

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Friday, August 25, 2006}

halo..im back! its been a week or so since i last blogged.. went for the 7th mth dinner yesterday with my family n relatives! as usual..hot n noisy! & the food wasnt as gd as in the past! hee..and ah Boy was there too! cute~ but very mischievious too! wanted to buy balloon so Qf bought him 1 n he chosen the "fish" design.. guess wad..he wanted the tweety bird after that lor~! ha..no choice he is so cute that i cant bear not to buy him one! oh and anyway he jus ran to the "balloon uncle", pulled the balloon which is tied with strings.. wad else can i do besides paying up? lolx

been really really tired n busy working this week! work seems to be never-ending! been sooO long since i felt this busy! ooh..and tony came last saturday..finally! lolx.. he looked so refreshed! hmm not bad! chatted for an hour or so with him..haiz.. if only he is still working with us!
:( wanted to gather around on sunday but ethel cant make it.. arh..she is so busy nowadays! so we decided to postpone it.. haha..and sunday was fun working with ethel n lee! so much craps they did(as usual)! :) hey & did i mention earlier on? ive been watching Lee Hom concert dvd in shop recently & realised that he is so so so cool! had nv find him so charming before~! till i watched the dvd! he is damn gd looking ok! & im loving the songs he sing which i used to hate! hahahaha! its a MUST BUY! im buying! so does ethel n lee! they are crazy bout it too! LOLX

yeah!! im off today! ha.. am goin to meet up with keline & jocelyn later! yea..keline treating us dinner! cuz she striked 4D..hahahhaha.. but $250 only la..! muz get her to treat us some gd food! lolx! byee~~

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006}

Did I disappoint you or let you down?Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be.
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

when my winamp suddenly played this song while i was browsing*blindly on some webbie(dont know which web, cant even remember) it really hitted the spot when i heard the lyrics. fits so much into my mood n feelings now.. sad song..sad departure.. well, thats me anyway. sadist,im called..

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Thursday, August 17, 2006}

met Lina today! wow has been so so sooOO long since i last met her.. hmm let me think. if im not wrong i think she resigned on April.. yah.. 4mths.. so happy that she actually came Tm specially to look for me after she knock off! went for a drink with her at Phin's! chatted for an hour! lolx! pathetic wen jie.. was all alone in the shop! but really had so many things to talk to Lina! well.. she's also encouraging me to resign! lolx.. but im really confused. anyway, am now really considering hard abt trying out HMV! though pay is not as much as wad im getting now, but benefits and welfares are much much more better! admit im abit tempted! lolx! see how lah..but for the meantime im still stayin.. will leave sooner or later, but not now! :)

its been only ONE DAY.. yah..one.. and it seems like my anger n frustrations has already faded.. & time passes so slow today i dont know why.. everything was flashing in my mind when i was on my way home.. then i realised that my frustrations had turned into sadness.. reminiscing all the good times. everything still feels so vivid though.. wadeva.. let time & destiny prove everything. its karma..

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006}

if u think this is wad u wanted then go ahead, i will respect ur decision. im SERIOUSLY sicked of this shit.. if u always think i am the one wrong..i've nothing to say. but..i beg to differ though! i think this isnt the kind of life i want to lead, & it isnt life i shall say its hell! i hate this cold/hot shoulder from u! make me feel so much like those spared tyre ppl keep in their car boots! yah..all this is wad i caused, wad i want.. u've no wrongs, its all me! satisfied! hello, do u know what is reali gd/bad for yourselves? u jus cant simply take advices. and u're the one making a fuss abt it NOT ME! damn! spoiled the whole of my freaking ONE off day after working for 55hrs straight from 5 days! if i am the 5years back me, i think i wouldnt be so kind like now! humans are always lidat.. see u soft then attack u..treat u like fucking shit. cuz they know u wont do the same back to them! sorry u are wrong, i am not as soft n gd hearted as u think. since we're on different boat, well, i'll go my way.. think u wil be much more happier on ur own!

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Sunday, August 13, 2006}

its really tiring..to have commitment, to please/humour someone, giving-in, nothing in return.. so whats the purpose for all the above shits? why try so hard when u'r obviously not being appreciated? sometimes, i try to hold back my tears, n its helluva difficult! but, it isnt all about the kind of pain in ur eyes when ur tears are fallin', its the sharp thingy that really pokes ur heart, the real kinda pain that will cause ur tear flowing! sometimes, just hoped i could give everything up, & have a new beginning.. whether a gd or bad one, at least i know i am not staying at the point where everyone's moving forward, but im still at the start point. felt so useless of myself. really hope/wanted all the efforts made could in return be some happiness or appreciation..been tryin hard & harder each time.. humans will nvr be satisfy.. if only i can pour everythin out to someone! its so much pain, so much agony to keep everythin within urself, yet..have to act and work like nothing matters. had to smile, laugh when someone cracks a joke(be it funny or lame).. but in fact, ur heart is bleeding inside u..but no one sees it..
its a terrible day today! horrid! i can say.. people says " what goes around comes around".. but what the hell is coming around me? is it some kind of retribution? but as far as i remembered, i dont think ive ever let anyone down or hurt anyone.. just hope everything will be over soon.. or i dont think i will be able to take it anymore, im breaking down. 21st b'day. so what? no big fuck. all i want is happiness, & being appreciated, not the fancy gifts.
fancy gifts = $hundred(s)
happiness = priceless
this is what i need! god! i need happiness!! i need ur blessings! so where are u???

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006}

kinda late & tired but still decided that i should blog. obviously i'd got nothing much better to do! lolx.. not sleeping yet, cuz its my off day tmr! yay! off day = sleep, eat, tv, online, go out, sleep! so nice! better than working~~ esp after the longg longg 2 days of work.. so tiring! cuz i'm so short of manpower! not only this 2 days, but for the whole of 2 weeks, it'll only be me & wen jie workin on weekdays! oh ya..& talkin abt work.. reminds me that did i actually blog abt my pay rise? its a PATHETIC 70BUCKS LOR! haiz.. deducting the cpf..its like $56 left.. thought it sounded so pitiful till i heard somethin quite consoling and intelligent! lolx! lee ling said that she told her mum abt it, & her mum said "$70 a mth not bad ar.. it is a 70X12!" LOLX! therefore, it is $840/annual! lol.. sound much more betta right! haha! ok. but i was kind of demoralised for the whole day then. till today Mark called n asked me how is the increment? good? then i replied somethin like "err.. haha.." but..he said that office will give u a letter of appointment of whatever shit i cant rmb. which wil announce that my post wil be promoted to supervisor, then after probation, my pay will rise again! yay! hope this time he wont disappoint me!
my sis's lady boss is soOOO nice! cny gave her a ang bao of $200(if i'm not wrong) then got her a ipod.. then now.. A GUCCI HANDBAG! omg~ plsss..if only that is my boSS! mine is totally opp! stingy.. confident-less, & still stingy stingy! gave me 70! pls lor! jus only $30 is enough to make the increment look more generous! haiz whatever. that's wad bosses are like! my sis's exceptional..so lucky so fortunate.. ok. its dream time now! n yea~~ meeting "uncle teck" for lunch tmr! treat me swensen! hahaha! nights.. (-_-)zzzZ

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Thursday, August 03, 2006}