i dont really know what to write..
or rather how to..
sadness level is high up to 100% i think. can almost reach the sky.. lol.. cant believe i still have the mood to joke..

fucking upset today.. today, i really felt Yanting's goin to leave soon.. gawdd!!!!!!

we were so enthu..so happily doing our xmas decos and tree.. admiring at our work..jokin and laughing.. taking pics in the shop after work.. etc..

but after every1 left.. i was scrolling thru my pictures.... felt sad all of a sudden..then sms-ed yanting..

there i go;
"hey, thanks for e x'mas pressie..shouldnt have spend so much on buyin a xmas pressie for me la.. i wanted to buy u somethin better this year cos its ur last year ma..also not mine..ha.. and thanks for ur all efforts today.. See la..u'r making me feel so sad thinking it is e last xmas tree u'r making this year.."

sigh.. she would always help out and participate in all this.. lol..as i always say cos she's the only one creative enough.. tats why she's an art student..

her reply makes me even more upset lor..dammit....

"ha..doesnt matter la.. haha.. who knows i can cum back again to do xmas tree for u.. ya..i also feel abit sad..like i really goin to leave le.. last time i nv thought i will bu she de but now can really feel it.. nvm.. still got 1 or 2 mths more.."

i've nv ever felt this upset b4 when any staffs or colleague resign.. never..
that explains why she's the best staff cum friend i've ever met at MJ..
omg!! i really cant bear to let her leave man.. she is so my bestest friend at work.. like she's the only one who understands me.. who keeps my shop tidy.. who laughed at my lame jokes and then cracked a even lamer joke to me.. who i can talk to..no matter work or personal.. who stayed behind after to accompany me, chat with me and console me after work when she know i'm upset.. its been more than 2years man.. WTFUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and both of us went Tampines Ikea today b4 work and happily shopped around for our decos and bells.. then had lunch there too.. till 1pm then we reached shop..lol..

who's gonna accompany me buy xmas deco nxt year.. who's gonna help me decorate nxt year.. who's gonna lunch-out at work with me nxt year... who's so kind enuf to wake up earlier to have Macs breakfast with me nxt year.... ... :...(

cant believe i cried in the cab on my way home.. lol..
and i told her i'm not gonna work on her last day.. im afraid i will cry..

hope i'll be able to organise a BBQ/chalet in dec with them.. cos i know she always wanted a BBQ again since the one we'd last year on leeling's bday..

im...speechlessly upset..

sickening, idioticly worthless fucking company.. yet.. it gave me the best memories in life.. the best staff.....

smoke-d @
Thursday, November 22, 2007}