i hate computers! hate getting online!!
its so weird..
at 1 min, i can be so hyper feelin happy. and at the other, i feel emo sitting infront of my pc?!

i felt myself drifting away.. im not so sure from what.. but.. i'm just not me. i'm not acting like ME. GAWD!

or is it reality?
i dont really know who am i right now.. my mind's always in a whirlwind.. like the pictures of everyday and/or the future is so vague..

did i changed for the good or bad? of cos that wil be a question for God only.. lol..

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was chatting with Xueli.. asked her if she think i've changed lately.. and her reply was ;changed to what? i think its for the better

am i? i think im getting more and more pessimistic!
and there's something she said that really struck a nerve in me..

shir.xue says:
thinking wont help... only actions bring abt solution mah... if no actions can be taken then let nature take its course
shir.xue says:
when u have the choice to be carefree vs stressed why pick the latter?

but then, these are words from a happy-go-lucky gal..
while im the vice-versa..

but though.. i felt so much better talking...

----i'm thankful i've a bunch of gr8 girls sent from heaven
though i always find Yun very naggy! lolx.. but i still lurve them! =)

smoke-d @
Monday, October 29, 2007}