Monday, April 23, 2007
dreadful night..
been feeling kinda down today.. or should i say nowadays? dont ask me why..
cos i dont even know! lolx.. ok i sound silly... i'm being over-paranoid recently i think.. sigh....
this year is a whole lot of shit for me.. cham liao lah.. a new year a new start.. guess i shall re-phrase it.. a new year a new load of shit/prob awaiting u! haha! generally, everything isnt goin too well for me so far..
firstly, work isnt too gd. facing the probability of my outlet closing down! =(
secondly, personal problems are all overwhelming me at this point of time! double siansiation!
thirdly, this year..is the poorest year i'd ever since i started working!
fourthly, beloved wai po passed away.
seems like humans can nv be satisfied with what they have.. when u'd a buddy, u think they understand u deep down. but when the bond gets deeper, u think they dont actually understand u and expect more.. well, im one of those.(i guess?)
good times really dont last.. they never did.
i'm pretty confused right now.. it really feels terrible man! how i wished i didnt have to hide so many things to myself.. haiz...
i'm not someone gd in words, especially that face-to-face kind. guess i'll kind of stumble.. GAHHHHHHHS!
to ppl who knows me.. and understand me deep down.. i'm not the kind who forsakes friends over small issues. i nv will.
friends and family are like angels to me. i know they will always be there for me when i need them.
sometimes, i tend to ignore/hack care when too many things happen.. cos i'm troubled and i just need a break.
i'm not someone who likes to bring unhappiness to others and instead i wish i can always make them happy. but i aint no God.. i aint no saint.. all i ever do is try.
haiz.. suddenly feel my heart aching saying all this.. dropppp ittt!
my long awaited off day is coming soon!! keke.. 1 more day to suffer and tues i can rot the whole day liao!
gonna meet up with Leeqing tmr after work.. im so much looking forward to it lah cos its been donkey years since we last catch up with each other..and we even lost touch! but the world is soOO small.. i actually bumped into her at Bugis when i went for my eyebrow trimming 2weeks back! =)
was planning to plan for some programme or rather maybe catching up with some old friends on tues.. BUT!! muz be cancelled liao.. cos bro big mole coming.. knew it when he ask me when im off!!! lolx.. need to help him rip cds and he will bring his thumdrive over when he knock off.. haiz.. thought he say say only so i said i wont be going out.. end up he say if he comes up and nv see me.. "he will let me die"... haha..
ok so there goes my off day! oh! but im free at night! after 8pm! LOLX.. =p
