its been 2 weeks.. memories of grandma is still so vivid.. and i still dont believe that she had left for another world. haiz.. i miss her especially at night.. esp when im in this room using pc.. cos she used to sleep in this room and whenever i on the lights to surf net..she would scold me for turning on the light.. she would keep nagging..asking me why im still staying up till so late.. asking me to come and sleep beside her.. she was forever asking us to share the bed with her.. but i never did. nvr wanted to share a bed with her(in the past)..honestly.. to think back.. why not? its not like she would eat me up..
just pondering.. will the angels above read my blog and convey whatever i wrote to my grandma? or maybe she's learning english somewhere in the heaven..lolx.. i really miss her man.. can God ever bring her back? even for a day.. there's so many of us who misses her..who cant bear to let her leave.. words cant describe every single bit of my thoughts and misses i'd over the past weeks for grandma.. i hate this feeling of sitting in this room..knowing that she wont ever talk to me or nag at me anymore.. :..(
mom went uncle hse today.. each of us had some old dollar notes grandma left behind.. those very very old notes that she used to collect and liked alot.. and all the money that she left in her bank and everything will be kept for doing her a ritual a year later.. so relieved.. luckily those money didnt end up in the hands of her unfilial sons! or rather "SON" lah cos there's only 1 of them. shall not bring up the topic of bastard.
its so late now and im not feeling bit of tireness.. dont know why.. grandma's still not yet back..(i guess?) didnt feel tat she's around.. freaking sick today. down with the damn flu and my nose is like red and swollen.. tmr still gotta work lor..sian.. plus big aunt is visiting soon.. double sian-sation!
think i shall go lie and my bed and try to sleep..gotta wake up at 8plus later....
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nights..angels and wai po..
