miss her suddenly.. :...( all the memories of wai po flashing in my mind again.. esp during my childhood days.. used to share my soft drink with her.. she always sip few mouths of my drinks.. guess she was around her 80s' then.. guess wad?! she loved to play "5 stones"! used to play with her and she was such an expert lor.. always lose to her.. haiz....... i simply miss her..

wondering... did she came back to find us? i sense her presence..really.. i could really feel her.. the funeral ended in a week..which was like in a blink of time.. how i wish that didnt have to end..how i wish she's still around.. how i wish i could still get to see her again.. can anyone tell me that she isnt gone yet? gahs!! its so fucking upset!! WTF!

its so freaking scary to think of "life & death".. i'd a friend asking me few days back.. what is the purpose of living? to wait upon death? i dont know. wai po is the first kin that left me.. i really cant imagine living days by days and people around me leaving this world.. i dont want to experience this kind of pain anymore.. ...

tmr is the 7th day.. will wai po come home? i heard her on monday and i felt her. though i was kinda afraid but im gonna wait for her tmr!! i know she wil come back de.. and this time i wont shiver anymore..

----- i miss u wai po.... :(

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