Friday, January 26, 2007
I AM NOT INTO UR GAMES.
TO YOU:
from today onwards, u and i will walk out of each other's life, forever. its pointless for u trying to be nice. i dont even appreciate it, not at all. u're just another player. and im not going to fall into ur games. i cant be of any better than now, without you. and for you, i think u're so much better off for the past few mths, why come and torture yourself? i feel so thankful to hear those words from u. "im very sick and tired of all this, if i were to talk to u everyday, i think i will go crazy". thanks for saying this to me! know why? cos this is the motivation to make me hate and forget u sooner! just wanna let u know that u shouldnt have sms-ed me earlier on. when u know that things will turn out lidat. and now u might say u wouldnt expect this, hell yah.. only if u dont lie thru ur teeth ok! whatever u do and say today dont even link! i dont need u to use ur lies to humour or please me.. and thanks, for coming back again into my life and making me waste all my efforts done for the past few mths. i dont remember u remembering me over the mths when things happened..and i felt like someone being abandoned.. i dont even know or remember the U that i used to know. im getting so unfamiliar to U now.. i cant even read whats on ur mind anymore..like i used to..... whatever it is.. yah.. u and i, we both screw things up.
GAHS! FUCK! in fucking foul mood this 2 days.. im just wondering, are humans all heartless? haiz.. im really in a loss for words.. i think im TOO STOOPID, TOO NAIVE, TOO STUBBORN. why do i still wan to hope for the impossibles after so long? why do i still want to trap myself into this shit again? esp when i'd a hard time walking out of it the other time.. just hope someone would slap me hard now.. WHYYYYYYYYYY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why cant God give me a break? why does he still want to do this to me?!! guess i'm just ill-fated lah..lolx.. i dont even know what u want nor what i want.. so, just continue moving on with ur life now. with no traces of me anymore.. and i hope i can do so too..soon...
----- if knowing me is such a torture to u, so why do u still come back?
