Friday, November 24, 2006
wtf
oh fuck.. wtf was i doing? its just so wrong lah.. where is all the will I'd previously?! where had they gone to?! fuck man.. im just so naive.. why cant i just think and decide properly before i act? i knew it is wrong.. i knew i would be making myself more miserable this way! tons more miserable? so why?!
someone..pls knock some sense into me.. why do i want to interrupt other's life esp when u know u shouldnt? esp when u know they fare better than u? who am i to compare to otherS? fuck.. i'm the past tense.. ppl are leading in their present tense now ok. WAKE UR FUCKING MIND UP!
after all.. i just think that it wasnt fair to me..not at all.. i didnt get the same treatment from u in the past.. u might say it was ur wrong in the past for not considering abt my feelings.. is this comforting me or apologising to me? i can only say that it didnt help or work ur intentions at all! TOTALLY! hey it just breaks my heart for god knows why! i just dont feel comfortable this way! i'd rather not know u..stranger.. ("stranger" is use by the Americans to call someone whom they havent been seeing/talking to.) not those that meant -strangers whom u dont know on the streets ok..
anyway... i think i screwed everything up.. truly sorry but i just cant control myself..
