Wednesday, November 01, 2006
FUCK.
WHY ARE PROBLEMS COMING TO ME NEVER-ENDING?!
DAMN SHIT! THOUGHT I'VE GOT OVER SOME SHIT. NOW A NEW ONE STARTS.
my year of 2006 started off so well.. everything was gr8. coming to an end, everything was totally fuck up. for fucking goodness sake!
today, the ever fucking first time. i'd a big quarrel with my staffs. i dont know why too? to me, it was a small issue, a small sacrification that could have make everything done perfectly. was that too much to ask from u?
refer to all my previous blogposts. i really feel proud to have all this staffs in TM. i'm proud of them, proud of myself for having them. but, today was a lil disappointment which caused me to hesistate.. are they? i dont deny that im also in the wrong, but i definitely dont agree that its all my fault. simply, because u are not a full timer, u're not working everyday, facing different types of customers. u dont feel the responsibility. i dont blame u for that, cos u're a part timer anyway. BUT, have u ever spared a thought for me, for our outlet? dont u also want our outlet to do well after so much efforts we made? did u ever regard me as ur Sup? i dont think so. whatever happened today, reflects to customers how bad our service is. it also shows them that the supervisor of the shop made empty promises. otherwise, can i just tell her that its because my staff wants to buy it, she's not letting it to u.. obviously i cant! so now, it is the In-charge's fault again. ive always maintained a "friend-friend" r/ship with u all during work..so that u all wont feel stress working with me. giving the immense trust in u all.. even when i said "no" at times, but in the end i would still make exceptions.
im not trying to emphasize or make myself sound gr8.. as all of u are gr8 to me too! i dont know wad went wrong. or maybe i was too stressed up during work. so much shit to do, yet everyday(i really mean everyday!) shorthanded.
revamped the whole fucking shop on sat after work with ash, jiahui and yanting. and till today there's still so much more to tidy up! im freakingly exhausted! still so many problems coming up! im giving up.. im physically and mentally tired. i see nothing gr8 at the end of all the hard work.. really...
where's the joyful working days in TM gone to....... :(
