another tiring day working.. slept at nearly 4am and had to work at 10am shift! 12 hours! i was in a daze for the whole day! plus, i was in very foul mood also..so everything was so terrible for me today.

sometimes, i asked myself.. why humans are so mean.. why humans can only remember the bad thing u did, but not the gd things?!

apparently, i didnt get the answer. or perhaps, God can tell me the answer.

how to forget abt everything..when u've been trying ur best to give the best of u.. i mean.. maybe..ppl might think that u'r not the best in their heart.. but..to me, i think its already the best of me that i've gave.. & i have no regrets at all.

though when everything happened, when i wasnt ready at all.. i thought, i regret for wasting my time and effort on ppl who dont even appreciate me.. but now, i think.. it is only when ppl grow up, grow stronger after each fall we encounter and solve..
it really suck when each time u fall, and when u finally get ur feets up again.. then some things will just obstruct ur way, it just makes u tripped again! i mean..how many times must tis repeat in ur whole lifetime? i'm so so so tired of it..

now, i really hoped for life to be peaceful.. i dont want to repeat the same mistakes again.. all i want for is just a simple life..

anyway, i was really feeling terrible for the whole of today, until i met Samantha online.. she is so kind! asking me if i am fine(bcuz of my terrible msn nick) and to take care.. lolx..although i only saw her once before! when she came to TM to work.. but i felt so touched when she send her regards...at least, she made me realised that, there's still people and friends out there who cares for me! thanks Samantha! :) nights!

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